Becoming Sara

my sister’s stupid boyfriend

I seriously hate when my sister’s boyfriends come to me with their relationship problems WHEN THEY’RE DATING MY SISTER. and then you’re sister posts a fb status that makes you want to cry and then call her because she’s so miserable. but you know you can’t cause it’ll only make her more upset. and then you just want to cry. and vent to your best friend and the first one you think of is a guy so obviously you can’t go to him and all your girlfriends are asleep. and i just realized i changed pronouns out of nowhere while typing this. i’m not sure if i’m speaking in the first person or third person anymore. that’s how upset i am. i swear this can NOT be happening again. if i have to break up with her for him (which would not be the first time i’ve done this) i will actually make his life miserable. i really want to cry right now. guys if yall are reading this please call me. i’m completely freaking right now.

Happy As Happy Can Be :)

Have you ever seen someone you love so happy that all you can do is smile? And you feel like you are the happiest person on earth all because this one other person is happy. And it’s even better because your wish finally came true. Because every time you make a wish it’s for that person and now that wish is coming true but you keep making that same wish anyways because you want the wish to stay true. That’s how much I love my best friend. When I know that he’s this happy and that everything is right in his life I am just beyond happy. :)

Just Another Late Night Rant?

Well it’s 12:13 in the morning and I just finished painting my nails. Tonight feels like one of those nights where I should have some random and completely stupid thing to be ranting about I really just can’t think of anything. It’s not like I have nothing to rant about because I’m sure if I really wanted to rant I could find a reason to rant. But I literally cannot find a single thing to rant about. It’s almost as if my mind was attacked by a HUGE bottle of white out and now there’s absolutely nothing in it. I’m even having a difficult time trying to find the words to finish this post. I’m just so tired and stressed all the time lately. I’m in constant pain because of my ankle. I always have a million thoughts running through my head all revolving around things that are no good for me. I never sleep. I’m constantly tired. Like physically and mentally exhausted yet no matter what I do I can’t sleep. Last night I was laying in bed for AT LEAST an hour trying to fall asleep. I need to find a way to clear my mind and stop thinking because at this rate I may never sleep again. Oh and did I mention I do not want to wake up in the morning for my 8 am music theory class? Yea tomorrow’s gonna be a fun day *sarcasm*. Well I guess it’s time for me to head to bed and listen to my playlist of songs on my iPhone that remind me of someone who I don’t need to be reminded of but listening to those songs is the only way I can seem to relax my body enough to sleep lately so off I go to my bed and my playlist. Goodnight moon. <3

it’s a ya-ya thing

i learned something in my psychology class today. on average more males are born every year than females. that raises the question why is it so hard for some of us to find the right guy or even just a good guy? and i have discovered the answer. it’s cause we have to go through that many more guys to find the ones that aren’t total douche bags. and in the end you’ll appreciate and love him that much more. cause trust me. he’ll be worth all the waiting and searching. i know it’s not alot but i hope it helps.  

<3 just think pretty pink-and-blue thoughts… <3